Sad

I sit here alone trying to struggle to come to terms with losing an Angel. The funeral is next Thurs, how will we all cope, only time will tell. I think this family is cursed, we had six family members die last year and two so far this year, where will it end.
I would apologise for the doom and gloom of this blog, but no-one reads it anyway.
I think therefore this is purely to get my thoughts out. Has anyone looked at gravestones or memorial plaques and looked the year born and died. I have, has anyone ever thought about the dash in between, that represents someones whole life in a single dash, everything they thought, felt and loved is marked with a line.
The childhood dreams that as you grow up turn into adults regrets, things you wish you had said and done or never done. I fear i am rambling now, oh well never mind. You think you have done everything right in your life when something happens and questions everything you feel, all the decisions you took and you were sooo certain, what if ..... keeps going on in your head until it drives you crazy and you cant sleep.
Is this normal am i normal ahhhhh yep i am definitely losing the plot. Am off to bed now to try to sleep and dream nice thoughts, hey its another day tommorrow, what else can go wrong ?